Now, barely 2.5 hours later, I've realized I have no patience. It's a no-patience kind of day. A bad mother kind of day. I'm irritated. I want it to be a good day and I'm annoyed with my lack of ability to make it one.
I'm irritated that my daughter pinched me while she was nursing. I'm irritated that she didn't want to eat breakfast. I'm irritated that she's constantly emptying her dresser drawers. I'm irritated that she can now open the fridge by herself. Just a few moments ago she got herself the cottage cheese and a spoon and sat down for a feast. As soon as I put some in a bowl for her she refused to eat it.
I'm irritated with myself for being irritated with her because she's two years old. She's doing normal two-year-old things. She's curious, smart, and independent and I'm glad she is. I wouldn't want it any other way.
I just want to deal with life more effectively. I can handle it better...most days.
How can I be frustrated with someone who is so excited about standing in the rain with her "rainbrella"?
It can still be a good day. We will make it a good day.
This post is part of Midweek Confessions at E, Myself, and I.
You can never truly be a "bad mother" if you're more frustrated with yourself than with them - you're simply a good mother having a bad day and we all have bad days.
ReplyDeleteThank you! I needed to hear that. I know deep down I'm not a bad mother...it just feels that way sometimes...
DeleteIt was writing that phrase that gave me the idea for my Mother's Day post. http://mollymakesdo.blogspot.com/2012/05/you-are-good-mother.html Feel free to share it with anyone else that needs reminder that they're a Good Mother.
DeleteYou are definitely not a bad mom. If you are than that makes me CRAZY MOM FROM YOU KNOW WHERE.
ReplyDeleteJust breath or better yet go stand outside with your daughter under the rainbrella and smile and laugh for awhile. Sounds very therapeutic. Enjoy the rest of the day.
Visiting from E, Myself and I. As a new mom of a six-week old, I think I already understand you. :) How can I be irritated when a tiny little helpless baby cries and cries? It's not his fault I don't speak baby, but yet I get irritated at times. I suspect one of the blessings of motherhood is that we grow as we are tried and tested through each circumstance. Thank you for your honesy, and for your choice to make it a good day, anyway. :)
ReplyDeleteWell written post about your feeling and frustrations as a mom. I hope the day turned around for you...
ReplyDeleteI'm not a mother, not even close, but I think this is normal! Sometimes we all just need a good scream and/or cry and then things seem to progress from there! Hope your week gets better! :)
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