Some days I feel like the blog is taking over my life. I start seeing my daily activities as potential blog posts instead of just enjoying what I'm doing in the moment. I spend too much time thinking about about matching the perfect picture with a post and worrying about writing what I think people will want to read instead of what I want to write.* I start worrying about how many page views I've had or whether I share too much information. I stress about neglecting our family blog and worry about whether or not my family is resentful of my computer time.
Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it.
Usually I decide that it is...except that I need to find a better balance.
I love the community I've found and the friends that I have made through this blog. I love the motivation it gives me to find and share new ideas, recipes, and activities. The blog helps me reflect and savor the good days and process the less good days. I love that it makes me feel connected when I feel isolated. In some ways it makes me feel like I have legitimate employment...like I'm contributing to the world in a tangible way.**
Will I quit blogging? Probably not any time soon. Will I give myself permission to take a break if I want/need one? Yes. Will I keep trying to find the perfect balance between blogging and real life? Definitely.
Some days will be computer free and some days won't. And that's okay. Like right now, I need to go do bedtime with my daughter. No more computer time for now.
*You'll notice this post doesn't have a picture. Trying to let go a little and not worry about it right now.
**Now I'm thinking about other posts I've written on similar topics and thinking I should dig them up and include links. But that sounds exhausting so I'm going to skip it tonight.
This post is part of Midweek Confessions.
Thanks for being so open and honest! We've all been there, and honey, this is the week of that feeling for both of us. I'm hoping we'll both find some balance and that doing a carnvial will end up being a chance to come to the blog to write instead of a chore. We'll see!
ReplyDeleteSome days I feel like this too. I know there is a balance and maybe someday I will find it. I only post two posts a week and am working my way up to a third. Everything for me is baby steps. I do not post on weekends at all. If it doesn't work, oh well. You will find what works for you and I hope you do.
ReplyDeleteDefinitely take a break if you need it! Maybe, post less often and then your daily activities won't seem like potential blog posts as much. Good luck finding the balance!
ReplyDeleteHere here! I've had my moments of feeling like this too, I think it all built to a crescendo about four months after I started blogging and I literally couldn't experience life without sizing up every occurrence as a potential post. I literally used to get palpitations. I've calmed down a bit now though, since I went self-hosted in fact. I think it had a sobering effect as I watched my stats fall back down to earth with a bang. It is all building back up now, but I've decided that apart from taking part in the June NaBloPoMo - where I found your link - I am going to stick to 3 posts per week. That's what I've been doing the last few weeks and it is a much more balanced existence - does beg the question, 'why am I doing June NaBloPoMo' tho!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for all the kind words! I've definitely been trying to just let go a little. If it feels like a chore (or a job) I'm not posting. If I'm motivated and feel good and enjoy my computer time I'm online : ) Last week I hardly posted at all but this week I'm feeling good again!
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