Thoughts on Watermelons and Babies

I realize it's been a long time since I've shared anything personal. It's easier to share recipes and photos. Like this one. Our watermelons are growing like crazy. I feel like I can sit and watch them expanding. Much like my belly. I can feel it getting bigger by the minute.

But I can still see my toes so that's nice. Only for a little while longer...

I suppose I haven't written anything about how I've been feeling because I'm having a hard time putting it into words, verbal or otherwise.

I have more energy than I did but I'm still exhausted.

I want to get out of the house and stay in bed all day all at the same time.

I want to talk about being pregnant and I want to keep it all to myself.

I want to get rid of stuff and reorganize the house but I don't where to start.

I want a clean house but I don't want to clean it because I know it will get messy again and the thought overwhelms me.

What does any of that (aside from the third item) have to do with the baby coming in five short months? Nothing and everything.

I'm a little conflicted these days.

Being pregnant a second time is different from the first. I haven't decided yet if the difference is a benefit or something else yet to be determined.

I've been a little surprised by the general public's reaction to a second baby. There's a little excitement at first but then it turns to warnings.

You thought your life changed with the first baby...just you wait. You think you're tired now...just you wait. You don't have time to yourself now...just you wait.

Frankly, it's irritating. I have to remind myself we heard all of these things the first time too, just in a slightly different context. We heard the same things when we got married. People saw us being happy together and would say things like,  

You're still newly weds, just you wait.

What for what? Life to get difficult? We're not going to stop loving each other or our children if life gets difficult.

Why can't people just be positive? I think it's possible to be positive and realistic at the same time.

Don't you?

Now I realize this post has taken on a much more negative tone than I ever intended so I'll stop. I don't mean to make it sound like everyone is being negative about our new baby. We do have lots of loving, supportive people around us. Like I said, it's the general public that comments.

Being pregnant always seems to make complete strangers feel at liberty to say the most bizarre things.

Cheers until tomorrow.

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