I could easily sit down and write pages about all the things that make me feel like
I'm failing at this whole motherhood thing. Sick children would be at the
top of the list. When my children are sick I do not feel like a good mother. When my children are sick I'm reminded of how much I cannot control--how I can't always keep them safe and healthy, how I can't always make them feel better with a hug or a kiss. Feeling like I can't protect them scares me.
Before I get distracted and write pages and pages about how much a hate watching and listening to my babies coughing, let me tell you about something that makes me feel a little better--homemade orange juice. Ripe oranges at the end of December and early January always seem like a little miracle. Perhaps it's because I didn't grow up this far south, but it always amazes me to see the bright fruit ripening on the trees this time of year--when we need them most.
It's incredibly satisfying to be able to go outside in the cool drizzle (yes, winter finally reached us--no more 80 degree days for a while) and pick a huge bag of oranges. I'm amazed at how few oranges it takes squeeze an entire pitcher of juice. For a few seconds I forget about how uncomfortable we all are (the coughing, the snot, the germs I'm desperately trying to keep at bay even though we're all already sick) and I feel like a good mother.
I feel like a good mother because L smiles while we squeeze juice and she even drinks a few sips. It's like a little glass of fresh air and sunshine. It makes me feel better.
I hope you're all enjoying the winter months and staying healthy!